Looking for love and found someone who preyed on that and stayed years after I should have left. Neglected familial relationships thinking I wasn’t needed when truth is I was blind to, that was where I was needed most. You hear them say choosing the wrong partner can cause you to lose everything… and I did.. money, house, dignity, self respect, cherished relationships, peace, myself, and a piece of my heart. But I know a God of restoration, redemption, grace, mercy, joy and love.. My tears spoke the prayers of my heart when I couldn’t form the words. I praised Him even when I couldn’t see Him. I served even when I didn’t feel worthy to…
I came to my ‘Aahhh‘ moment. Realizing I messed up…It was time to Acknowledge, Address, and Hopefully Help Heal those wounds. The wounds that were inflicted by others and those that I inflicted on myself.
Thank God for those He speaks through because I couldn’t fathom how in all the hurt I was wading through, there could be joy… Yet those were the words spoken over me years ago…’His joy is all over you’…God was faithful to His word even though I didn’t deserve it. And as He restored me (and still is restoring me)…. Piece by broken piece, I praise Him for keeping me even when I didn’t deserve to be kept. Through Covid-19 and the hospitalizations and still needing to use oxygen 2 years later, I praise Him. When the attacks were coming and I didn’t know if He saw me, He sent His words again to shore up my strength in my faith. Even now with the storm raging around me and feeling like the boat is sinking and I’m going down with it, I praise Him. He has always been there. He has been a faithful Father, and for that I will forever be grateful because He didn’t have to, but He did and He continues to. Over and over again.
Don’t give up. God is faithful in all things.
Then they cried out to the Lord, in their trouble; He saved them out of their distresses. He sent His word and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions. – Psalm 107:19-20 (NASB)
